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Tony Clay · 01-27-2012, 05:57 PM

Now we're getting somewhere.

Don Tickner · 01-27-2012, 10:20 PM

Dear Tony Clay,

I get the feeling...

... respectfully,
-A crazy ginger.

Slade · 01-28-2012, 08:52 AM

I guess they're just one of those crazy families.

James McCloud · 01-28-2012, 03:22 PM

this thread is ridiculous

im just absolutely bewildered. is tony having some sort of breakdown? what is even happening?

also in that religious thread im loving stroggdors edit when talking with klown going from "go to hell freaking bastard" to "go to hell" ... bringing his heritage into question was crossing over the line a little bit ... just dial it back to eternal damnation

Tony Clay · 12-10-2012, 07:59 PM

Members of 3dmm.com:

Apologies for flying off the handle earlier in the year.

It's been a long path towards receiving help for my mental problems, but it has been achieved.

To shorten a long story (life), my issues came to full force around the date of the 25th of January (give or take). I'm fairly certain my actions here took place a few days prior but I'm not going to re-read the stuff at this point. In early January, I began researching mental conditions with the purpose of identifying what case I was experiencing.

I came to the conclusion that I had numerous issues that required treatment. PTSD was the top one, for physical and mental abuse as a child. I struggled for years with regret, sadness, hopelessness, fear, and anger in my adult years due to this. Ever since I began posting on the internet, the majority of what I have said has had at the very least a tinge of anger within. Prior to receiving treatment, it was fucking futile. All the same, my posting continued.

Although I had analyzed my conditions, I had yet to see a doctor. I instead began drinking from the beginning of my day to the end. In addition, I was taking an antidepressant, Celexa (30mg). Due to the medication, the intoxication was different from a nominal one. I have ADHD, and at that time in my life, struggled to formulate what I wanted to say. However, with the combination of the med and the booze, I became eloquent, communicative, all that. Rambling. Main problem, after about 17 days, I quit sleeping. And after 2-3 days, became psychotic. What you read from me in January this year was just that.

So this goes on for about 20 days. During this time, I made a call to child services to report my parents for child abuse. My family still has 3 underage children (out of 6. not Mormon, Baptist. I am a tolerant Christian, unlike any of them), so I called to ensure that no harm was being done to them. I'm not stating this was a wise decision, I was constantly intoxicated. Part of the reason I made the call was because in September in 2011 I had made it known to my parents that I was no longer cool with the way they "trained" their children instead of raising them. As a result, they cut me off. I have not seen my siblings since.

On January 25, I admitting myself into a detox clinic. I finished 8 days later. From there I went to a mental health hospital for suicidal thoughts where I stayed for three months. Following that, in April, I flew down to LA to enter a rehab for Alcohol dependence. A month later, I spent two months in another mental hospital for slashing my arm and wrist while in rehab. Following that, I returned to rehab where I spent two more months and completed the program. I now reside in a sober living house in Pasadena (sober from alcohol, anyway).

During my stay at the hospital, I was diagnosed with Aspergers (now known as Autism Spectrum Disorder, somewhat under control; certainly better than before being medicated), PTSD (I still struggle with it), major depressive disorder (under control), and bipolar.

With medication I am doing better. Thanks to all who exercised restraint in not going nuclear on me for my insanity.

EDIT:
I cannot recall if earlier in the thread I apologized to Samurai Clinton for mocking him over the years. If not, sorry, Dude.

Merry Christmas.

Bobby Swisha · 12-10-2012, 08:22 PM

You don't really owe us an explanation man. If you've got issues you owe it to yourself to get better and no one else. But it's good to see that you're getting treatment, and I hope you're on the right path to live a happy life. Merry Xmas random 3dmm bro.

John Coffee · 12-11-2012, 06:26 AM

wow. it's amazing how much 3dmmm.com can affect people's lives... we're a really important community. well i forgive you, tony. wishing you the best.

Andres · 12-11-2012, 08:56 AM

I have no idea who these people are.

Omnirom · 12-11-2012, 09:13 AM

Tony, you sound like my brother with aspergers. A diagnosis is just that. If you have the belief that you are an aspy, ptsd, depressed etc, you will interpret everything through that filter, your actions will reinforce that belief, and that belief will come true. Mr. Wright had the belief a placebo shot was a wonder drug, and it cured his tumors. Only when he found out it was a placebo, he stopped believing in the shot, and he died. The power of the mind.

http://lifestyle.inquirer.net/wellne...-ill-Mr-Wright

Phil Williamson · 12-11-2012, 11:50 AM

jesus christ now I'm gonna worry that this is what happens to everyone we drive off

Bobby Swisha · 12-11-2012, 06:43 PM

I mean, I hope so.

01-27-2012, 05:57 PM	#126
Tony Clay Senior Member Join Date: Nov 2004 Posts: 2,583	Now we're getting somewhere.
Tony Clay Senior Member Join Date: Nov 2004 Posts: 2,583

01-28-2012, 08:52 AM	#128
Slade Senior Member Join Date: Jul 2003 Posts: 9,390	I guess they're just one of those crazy families.
Slade Senior Member Join Date: Jul 2003 Posts: 9,390

12-10-2012, 07:59 PM	#130
Tony Clay Senior Member Join Date: Nov 2004 Posts: 2,583	Members of 3dmm.com: Apologies for flying off the handle earlier in the year. It's been a long path towards receiving help for my mental problems, but it has been achieved. To shorten a long story (life), my issues came to full force around the date of the 25th of January (give or take). I'm fairly certain my actions here took place a few days prior but I'm not going to re-read the stuff at this point. In early January, I began researching mental conditions with the purpose of identifying what case I was experiencing. I came to the conclusion that I had numerous issues that required treatment. PTSD was the top one, for physical and mental abuse as a child. I struggled for years with regret, sadness, hopelessness, fear, and anger in my adult years due to this. Ever since I began posting on the internet, the majority of what I have said has had at the very least a tinge of anger within. Prior to receiving treatment, it was fucking futile. All the same, my posting continued. Although I had analyzed my conditions, I had yet to see a doctor. I instead began drinking from the beginning of my day to the end. In addition, I was taking an antidepressant, Celexa (30mg). Due to the medication, the intoxication was different from a nominal one. I have ADHD, and at that time in my life, struggled to formulate what I wanted to say. However, with the combination of the med and the booze, I became eloquent, communicative, all that. Rambling. Main problem, after about 17 days, I quit sleeping. And after 2-3 days, became psychotic. What you read from me in January this year was just that. So this goes on for about 20 days. During this time, I made a call to child services to report my parents for child abuse. My family still has 3 underage children (out of 6. not Mormon, Baptist. I am a tolerant Christian, unlike any of them), so I called to ensure that no harm was being done to them. I'm not stating this was a wise decision, I was constantly intoxicated. Part of the reason I made the call was because in September in 2011 I had made it known to my parents that I was no longer cool with the way they "trained" their children instead of raising them. As a result, they cut me off. I have not seen my siblings since. On January 25, I admitting myself into a detox clinic. I finished 8 days later. From there I went to a mental health hospital for suicidal thoughts where I stayed for three months. Following that, in April, I flew down to LA to enter a rehab for Alcohol dependence. A month later, I spent two months in another mental hospital for slashing my arm and wrist while in rehab. Following that, I returned to rehab where I spent two more months and completed the program. I now reside in a sober living house in Pasadena (sober from alcohol, anyway). During my stay at the hospital, I was diagnosed with Aspergers (now known as Autism Spectrum Disorder, somewhat under control; certainly better than before being medicated), PTSD (I still struggle with it), major depressive disorder (under control), and bipolar. With medication I am doing better. Thanks to all who exercised restraint in not going nuclear on me for my insanity. EDIT: I cannot recall if earlier in the thread I apologized to Samurai Clinton for mocking him over the years. If not, sorry, Dude. Merry Christmas.
Tony Clay Senior Member Join Date: Nov 2004 Posts: 2,583

12-11-2012, 08:56 AM	#133
Andres Senior Member Join Date: Oct 2001 Posts: 17,797	I have no idea who these people are.
Andres Senior Member Join Date: Oct 2001 Posts: 17,797

12-11-2012, 09:13 AM	#134
Omnirom Banned Join Date: Jun 2003 Posts: 569	Tony, you sound like my brother with aspergers. A diagnosis is just that. If you have the belief that you are an aspy, ptsd, depressed etc, you will interpret everything through that filter, your actions will reinforce that belief, and that belief will come true. Mr. Wright had the belief a placebo shot was a wonder drug, and it cured his tumors. Only when he found out it was a placebo, he stopped believing in the shot, and he died. The power of the mind. http://lifestyle.inquirer.net/wellne...-ill-Mr-Wright
Omnirom Banned Join Date: Jun 2003 Posts: 569

01-27-2012, 10:20 PM	#127
Don Tickner Senior Member Join Date: Oct 2001 Posts: 3,021	Dear Tony Clay, I get the feeling... ... respectfully, -A crazy ginger.

01-28-2012, 03:22 PM	#129
James McCloud Senior Member Join Date: May 2005 Posts: 4,214	this thread is ridiculous im just absolutely bewildered. is tony having some sort of breakdown? what is even happening? also in that religious thread im loving stroggdors edit when talking with klown going from "go to hell freaking bastard" to "go to hell" ... bringing his heritage into question was crossing over the line a little bit ... just dial it back to eternal damnation

12-10-2012, 08:22 PM	#131
Bobby Swisha Senior Member Join Date: Apr 2002 Posts: 46,012	You don't really owe us an explanation man. If you've got issues you owe it to yourself to get better and no one else. But it's good to see that you're getting treatment, and I hope you're on the right path to live a happy life. Merry Xmas random 3dmm bro.

12-11-2012, 06:26 AM	#132
John Coffee Senior Member Join Date: Jul 2005 Posts: 1,595	wow. it's amazing how much 3dmmm.com can affect people's lives... we're a really important community. well i forgive you, tony. wishing you the best.

12-11-2012, 11:50 AM	#135
Phil Williamson Super Moderator Join Date: Oct 2002 Posts: 16,900	jesus christ now I'm gonna worry that this is what happens to everyone we drive off

12-11-2012, 06:43 PM	#136
Bobby Swisha Senior Member Join Date: Apr 2002 Posts: 46,012	I mean, I hope so.